its here!

So... I'm leaving for the airport in 3 hours... I haven't yet gone to bed. Life is crazy in my world... haha. The past week has been so full... graduation, lots of families here for graduation celebrations, church on sunday, memorial day monday, and then our house has been deep cleaning (hoping for that security deposit....lol) and i've been packing both for Uganda and for moving in only 2 days when I return. aye yay ye.... one thing to the next so fast its hard for me to keep up. I'm excited to finally be in Uganda and just be there. I'm not so much looking forward to the traveling time, but hey, it will be a good time for me to mentally process the flying at the speed of lightening pace of my life and hopefully i can sleep as well. I appreciate everyone who has been so good to me in the past few days... between the 500.00 that came in one week, to my precious friends who have been helping me to get everything I need- To my wonderful roommates who have sent me with letters and snacks and journals and love... i am so blessed and im so thankful for that. Thank you all... I love you so much. I know this blog is incredibly scattered...but its nearly 3 am and well I inhaled a lot of soft scrub and scrubby bubbles today and who knows what that can do to your brain cells... ahaha. next time i write I will be in uganda :) <3333 meg

"You Lord are a shield about me, everywhere, everywhere that I go...."

Getting closer...

I find my mind dwelling on Uganda much these days. So many emotions as I wait in eager expectation and anticipation, yet there is nervousness and fear as well. I was just taking a 15 minute "nap" which really just meant laying on the couch and breaking from the 24 hour around the clock homeworking. As I laid I my mind went to thinking about how comfortable my life is here. I know its good to be content, but something deep on the inside is constantly screaming at me "this isn't it, theres more to this life, you're not living the LIFE that I have for you" - I know God has more in store, and I'm ready to see it. I was in the Library last week, sitting in one of those big comfy lazy boy chairs. Why those are in the library I don't know, because really they're just for taking naps... who can really get work done in a lazy boy when its quiet? Haha, but I was sitting there typing away on my laptop, when all of a sudden I felt this complete discontent with my situation. It wasn't a discontent in an ungrateful way, don't get me wrong, I am so blessed to be in college and having the opportunity to learn. It was just that as I sat there I thought, this is not my life, I was not made to sit and write papers on a laptop, and I began to imagine the numerous little faces that will look up at me as I hold them in my arms. I can see them in my spirit, and I could imagine them as I was sitting in that lazy boy chair. I believe God has graced my life with a means of being a spiritual momma to many many children without. My heart is flooded with excitment as I anticipate being able to love, hold, declare truth over, speak life into, pray for and be Jesus' hands and feet to Ugandan children this summer.

"....you're faithful, and I'm grateful...Lord I thank you..."

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