Getting closer...

I find my mind dwelling on Uganda much these days. So many emotions as I wait in eager expectation and anticipation, yet there is nervousness and fear as well. I was just taking a 15 minute "nap" which really just meant laying on the couch and breaking from the 24 hour around the clock homeworking. As I laid I my mind went to thinking about how comfortable my life is here. I know its good to be content, but something deep on the inside is constantly screaming at me "this isn't it, theres more to this life, you're not living the LIFE that I have for you" - I know God has more in store, and I'm ready to see it. I was in the Library last week, sitting in one of those big comfy lazy boy chairs. Why those are in the library I don't know, because really they're just for taking naps... who can really get work done in a lazy boy when its quiet? Haha, but I was sitting there typing away on my laptop, when all of a sudden I felt this complete discontent with my situation. It wasn't a discontent in an ungrateful way, don't get me wrong, I am so blessed to be in college and having the opportunity to learn. It was just that as I sat there I thought, this is not my life, I was not made to sit and write papers on a laptop, and I began to imagine the numerous little faces that will look up at me as I hold them in my arms. I can see them in my spirit, and I could imagine them as I was sitting in that lazy boy chair. I believe God has graced my life with a means of being a spiritual momma to many many children without. My heart is flooded with excitment as I anticipate being able to love, hold, declare truth over, speak life into, pray for and be Jesus' hands and feet to Ugandan children this summer.

"....you're faithful, and I'm grateful...Lord I thank you..."

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